Split personality.

I am not a Gemini, in fact, I am very much a Leo: dominant, in love with life, loyal, delusions of grandeur.

But I often wonder if I'm not a Gemini rising... I don't know what that rising bit means, but I guess it means you have a sprinkling of other sun sign influences as well.

By the way - this reminds me - I was once told a cardinal rule of first dates:

Never ask a bloke what star sign he is... they mostly don't care, don't believe in all that mumbo jumbo, and may even think, "oh crap she's gonna deck my man cave out in scented candles and Tibetan peace flags."

My point being: discussing star signs can be annoying for some, so I'll stop right here.

What I'm trying to say is, I believe I have two sides of my personality that are constantly and perpetually in conflict... Sort of like yin and yang: two opposed, yet inseparable forces.

Oh yikes, I'm getting all deep again. Anyone got a tree spare I can hug? Or would like to discuss chakras and sage-burning-activities?

My god Natalie, get to the flippin point while we're all still young.

Here is the point:

I have dated tortured whiskey-drinking artists with long hair and tattoos, and I have dated corporate bankers with pressed suits and a taste for Sauvignon Blanc. I have loved both.

I have lived the artists' life (acted on stage, poured drinks in a bar, counted my pennies) and I have felt the excitement of pimping out my desk with pictures and flowers inside a corporate office.

I want to spend all my money on flippant, impulse-driven purchases, yet I frown at the concept and truly believe in the importance of saving money.

I want to sell all my possessions and travel the world - free and unchained - and, yet, I deeply love building a home with things, people and animals in it.

I have been on the verge of going overboard at a party and launched into internal debate about whether to stay and let loose or go home, watch a chick flick and prevent bedlam the next day.

I am responsible and yet prone to extreme irresponsibility. I quite like both.

I want freedom and children.

I want this blog post to end before 2047.

What about you? Do you feel you arrived in the world with one clear side? Or do you feel both wild and measured at the same time?

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